It has been very hard these past few days. The depression has decided to kick me in the face once more and whilst I am trying to hide the fact i am drowning in my own self pity from my family and friends that want to have nothing other than a good chat with me, I am trying to put myself back on track so I can be normal, so I can be human with the people around me.
With no other exams left and 3 months away from the hell hole we call school, I am free. I have time to do things for myself and lose myself in the 14 books I have sitting only bed side table that I haven’t cracked into (I will be doing book reviews in the very near future!) I will be seeing my best friend of 6 years whom I haven’t had a good catch up with in nearly a year and on friday seeing another friend who can never fail to make me smile no matter what mood I am in. I’m hoping to get back into human activity and spend time with friends that are trying to understand me but I just prefer to leave in the dark. I am going to be blogging SO much these next 3 months so be very very prepared for that. I am going to try find a job and start taking music lessons again, all of this I am hoping will distract me from myself and focus on living rather than trying to completely erase myself from peoples lives.
I’m sorry for my last few posts… actually no I am not sorry, this is MY blog and I have every right to post what I would like on it. This is a way for ME to express my feelings towards things so no I will not apologise to those who have not enjoyed my last 2 posts but this is my blog lets not forget, you are choosing to read them so I am very much NOT sorry about posting them.
Anyway, I am trying guys. I’m getting my goals set and aspirations started. More posts on a variety of different things coming soon and if you have any recommendations or suggestions of what I should write about feel free to leave a comment.
P.s. I am going to be selling crafts and what not very soon so be sure to check all of that out! 🙂
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